Ready for the Second Half of the Race

I have 2  embryos frozen and waiting for me to be ready for the transfer. I first had to wait for my menstrual cycle so I could start the second part, which is getting ready for the transfer. So I started my period on Monday (I've never been so excited to see my period come)!! So, tomorrow I go to the doctor to get my first ultrasound and blood test and if everything looks ok then I will start meds that night. Right now, my estimated embryo transfer will be Sept 1st.

I'm really excited and nervous at the same time. I feel like this has truly been a roller coaster and I'm not ever finished yet. We have one shot at using my eggs and I'm terrified that mine won't make it. It's hard for me because I feel out of control. I can not will them to work. I'm a little bit of  a control freak....just a little! I know it's in God's hands and I'm trying to find comfort in that.

Another Day

I started this blog to share what we are going through to continue our family. Now, I feel like I want to hide from my blog and everyone else and myself if I'm being totally honest. So today, the doctor called to tell me we are down to 4 embryos and they aren't quiet big enough to freeze so we are in for another day of waiting to see what happens.... I feel scared because the number keeps reducing and soon I won't have any left. This is my chance to have my eggs work and if they don't make it then it will hurt and I don't know how to prepare myself for the let down.

Eggs, Eggs, Eggs

I had my procedure on Thursday. They took out 16 eggs and 9 of them fertilized!! So it's looking pretty good that mine might make it and we can try to get pregnant with my own eggs. I'm nervous about getting my hopes up so I feel like I'm extra negative. Well.....
maybe not negative but people seem to think it's going great so I point out the down falls and point out that we aren't out of the woods yet.

So it's been 3 days now, and we have 7 embryos that are still developing, still not getting my hopes up but starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. 4 of them are 10 cells and 3 of them are 8 cells. I've been super sore. I feel like I'm 9 months pregnant and I look probably 3 months along. Grrr.... I've been having trouble getting comfortable at night. Last night, I was so uncomfortable that I put a pillow between my legs.... I know that is what pregnant people have to go when they are super pregnant. I guess, I'm getting extra practice at being pregnant.

Here we go!!

Tomorrow is my egg retrieval!! Yeah!! I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I did find out that we had 12 embryos that they froze from our donor!! I should of had a cheaper by the dozen dream last night but I didn't . So I am extremely hopeful that this is going to work and we will be parents to another child.

So keep your fingers crossed and us in your prayers!!