Another Day

I started this blog to share what we are going through to continue our family. Now, I feel like I want to hide from my blog and everyone else and myself if I'm being totally honest. So today, the doctor called to tell me we are down to 4 embryos and they aren't quiet big enough to freeze so we are in for another day of waiting to see what happens.... I feel scared because the number keeps reducing and soon I won't have any left. This is my chance to have my eggs work and if they don't make it then it will hurt and I don't know how to prepare myself for the let down.

Eggs, Eggs, Eggs

I had my procedure on Thursday. They took out 16 eggs and 9 of them fertilized!! So it's looking pretty good that mine might make it and we can try to get pregnant with my own eggs. I'm nervous about getting my hopes up so I feel like I'm extra negative. Well.....
maybe not negative but people seem to think it's going great so I point out the down falls and point out that we aren't out of the woods yet.

So it's been 3 days now, and we have 7 embryos that are still developing, still not getting my hopes up but starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. 4 of them are 10 cells and 3 of them are 8 cells. I've been super sore. I feel like I'm 9 months pregnant and I look probably 3 months along. Grrr.... I've been having trouble getting comfortable at night. Last night, I was so uncomfortable that I put a pillow between my legs.... I know that is what pregnant people have to go when they are super pregnant. I guess, I'm getting extra practice at being pregnant.

Here we go!!

Tomorrow is my egg retrieval!! Yeah!! I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I did find out that we had 12 embryos that they froze from our donor!! I should of had a cheaper by the dozen dream last night but I didn't . So I am extremely hopeful that this is going to work and we will be parents to another child.

So keep your fingers crossed and us in your prayers!!

When Nature Calls

Today, We had a great day in nature!! It was a good day to get away from our worries, well mine anyway. TJ is always thinking of ten things all at once so it may have helped him think about only 5 things during our hike at Mt Charleston.

Tomorrow, the donor is getting her egg retrieval done so TJ will have to go give a sample.
It is weird, there is nothing for me to do yet. I feel kind of left out of this part of the process.
But, I know I shouldn't feel that way!!

Donor Update

The Donor went to the doctor yesterday and everything is going very well. She has "23" growing follicles!!! She goes back tomorrow and then we will find out if she will have the egg retrieval on Sunday or if it will get postponed a day or two. 

The donor is our back up plan in case my eggs are no good again. Everything is moving pretty quickly, yet not quick enough. I'm trying not to get too excited but it seems impossible. How do you not get your hopes up or not plan ahead? 

A Gruver Adventure

We decided to go to the beach this past weekend to get away from the heat. So we left town after I got off work on Friday(not until 6pm). Friday was also the day we had to start my shots so we had to do them in the car on the way down there. It made it interesting to say the least. I had a little(TJ would probably call it more than a little) melt down because I was scared to give it to myself and TJ wanted to do it from the driver's seat which scared me even more. I pulled myself together and did it myself. YEAH!!! Afterwards I felt kind of silly because it really wasn't that bad.

Then the adventure continued when we went to breakfast the next morning. We had a lovely breakfast in Dana Point at a local cafe. Afterwards we were headed to the beach but our car had other plans and decided it didn't want to start. So we had to get a jump start from a tow truck and then head to Autozone to get a new battery. The car broke down again two blocks from Autozone. Sometimes all you can do is laugh!!!

Hiccups in the Plan

So we found out that my thyroid is working too hard so I technically I have a hypothyroid. This was a small bump in the road but the doctor told us that we can't transfer the embryos in until we have the thyroid under control.

So of course, my mind is going a hundred miles in all different directions.
How long does that take? When can I get in to see the doctor? What does this mean?

So I call to make an appointment and they can't get me in until August 1st and I was told it will take 6 weeks to regulate my thyroid. GRRRR....

But I called daily and someone cancelled (Thank you God!) So now I'm on thyroid medicine and have an appointment in 6 weeks to make sure the medicine is working.
The doctor explained that if my thyroid isn't functioning it's best then it can cause miscarriages (don't want that) and the baby can have a lower IQ (don't want that either)!!
This is a pill I won't be forgetting.

On the IVF battlefront, I have received all medications and went to learn how to give myself shots. Which terrifies me! I know I can do it but I'm kind of nervous.

So I have stopped my birth control pill. The birth control was kind of keeping my body on hold until the doctor is ready to start controlling my body. The shots will start on Friday!!

Also, Our Donor (we call her Amanda) started her period so she is starting her medications and she will be getting her estimated egg retrieval on July 31st!!!!